100 year old Farm Sink, Butcher Block, Picture
Window and Sky Light...washing dishes was
The boys just returned from a harrowing journey trudging through mountains of the remains of the last renters at our house in Sussex. Our move to the city was necessary for so many reasons but we had the complication of a partially remodeled home in the country. Due to the cancer treatment which prohibits me from being near any chemicals and the fact that the neurological disease I was dealing with made it impossible for me to be near any loud noises like hammering, we had to stop the remodel when I became ill. Our only option was to move first and finish the remodel afterward which left us in the precarious position of having two housing payments for nearly a year, not something easy for anyone.
After an absolutely beautiful remodel by my husband and our son following my carefully laid design, our house was ready to rent. It sported brand new wood flooring, 60" wainscoting, a vaulted wooden ceiling in the kitchen with a sky light which allows morning light to filter in through the many trees on the property and a huge picture window which looks out to an open yard area surround by a forest, butcher block cabinet tops, a 36" commercial gas stove and a 100 year old dairy sink which was reconditioned along with a 4' old-fashion claw-foot soaking tub in the 'girls' bathroom. It was stunning.
|Antique 4 Foot Claw-Foot Deep Soaking Tub...|
|Picture window with customized cabinets, just my size...|
|Taddington and Me holding down the Fort...|
Looking back at my life as a child, I was raised in a household of fear. There was fear over leaving the house, fear over answering the front door, fear over someone who sneezed in the car, fear over shaking hands, fear over people in general and it hampered our lives and our family's ministry. When I grew-up and started a home of my own, I took this fear with me. I was blessed to have a husband who didn't fear and began to slowly work me out of some of my issues and then, slowly, God has even recently been dealing with some of the deeper roots of those fears, tearing them out and replacing them with truth.
|My Precious Husband...|
I can't say I will never operating in fear again but I can say from now on, I will recognize it and be able to bring it under the blood before it overtakes me. I can say that as I study the Bible and glean from those Words I will learn to rest more and more in the arms of our Father and less and less in the circumstances. As the old song goes, 'Many things about tomorrow I don't seem to understand, but I know who hold tomorrow and I know who holds my hand'. I may still be in pain tomorrow, we may still be struggling to build our business tomorrow, our dreams may not be realized tomorrow and I may still be unable to walk tomorrow but I know God will be there to lead and guild us in His path for our lives and in that, there is no fear, there is only rest in Him.
May God Bless and Keep You in His Grace,