Spinzilla 2015 - End of Day 5...from a Disabled Spinner's Prospective!

Spinzilla - Day 5

   Day 5.  I can't believe how fast the time is going, only 2 more days left!  Today I finished my second single bobbin of the Yak/Silk Bobbin and was able to ply it into a lovely yarn.  It is beautiful!  I added a tiny bit of Firestar to give it a little bling to make it sparkle on those cold New Jersey winter days.  If the yarn is any indication, it is going to drape nicely.


50% Yak / 50% Silk blend in a deep purple with Firestar blended in for sparkle (the picture doesn't do it justice).
 It was spun to a 0-Laceweight, 2 ply, Woolen - Point of Contact.  

   As I have been working with the particulars with Healing Fibers Foundation as we finalize our 501C status, I am grateful to be able to power the wheel.  I am grateful to have hands that can draft the fibers easily.  I am grateful to have a family that support me.  On those days when the clouds want to set overhead and I tend to dwell on what I 'can't do', instead of what I 'can do'...Those are the days I have to forcibly remind myself of everything I have been given and how truly blessed I am.  

   Today I am blessed to have reached 1,198 yards for Spinzilla so far.  It's not a mile yet, and I will have to spin over 550+ yards in 2 days to make my mile but it is still a big accomplishment for me.  I have to admit to dwelling on the 'can't do's' today when I realized how far I was falling behind.  All the other ladies are spinning rings around me and for a moment, I was sad.  Okay, let's be honest, I was feeling sorry for myself.  Spinning is something I have wanted to do for years.  Something I had to work hard for 8 years in therapy to condition my legs to move enough to use a standard wheel.  So, as my husband and children have reminded me all day, I should be happy.  Instead all I could see is what I wasn't able to do.


50% Yak / 50% Silk blend in a deep purple with Firestar blended in for sparkle (the picture doesn't do it justice). 
 It was spun to a 0-Laceweight, 2 ply, Woolen - Point of Contact. 

   I hate to say there are different standard but sometimes there has to be.  Sometimes as when you are disabled, you have to allow yourself to have different standards and be okay with it.  Often, when you are disabled, you try so hard to prove you can do anything an able-bodied person can do , we forgot that it is alright to have different standards.  That doesn't mean we use those obstacles as a way to limit ourselves or stop us from striving to achieve all we can be but rather to give us permission to be okay with our physical disability.  I am not one who gives up easily but there are times when my decision to purse something far beyond my abilities causes depression instead of encouraging my state of being.  

   Spinzilla has given me a rare opportunity to see just how far I can push myself.   I have learned a lot about where my stamina is at and how far I can push past it.  I admit to some disappointment.  However, it is good to know and it felt good to go beyond my safety zone a few times.  I grant you, this is not something I can do regularly because when I get down, getting back up doesn't come easily and I cannot put my family in a bad situation just to prove something to myself.  When we have caregivers, we must consider them in our endeavors as well. 


50% Yak / 50% Silk blend in a deep purple with Firestar blended in for sparkle (the picture doesn't do it justice). 
 It was spun to a 0-Laceweight, 2 ply, Woolen - Point of Contact. 

   I don't know what I will accomplish over the next 2 days but I do know I will be happy with whatever my body allows me to complete.  This isn't a matter of will power or even the speed of which I can spin but it is all about what my body will allow me to do.  That is the what every disabled person must deal with every day of their lives.  But, limitations can teach us patience and compassion for others.  We can learn how to spot when others are dealing with difficulties, no matter their state in life, all from living with our own challenges.  


   I must rest now and prepare for Day 6.  I hope everyone out there will do something special today!  I don't know what that may be but make a goal and try to hit it.  Find something you want and inch toward that goal.  Maybe even share it with us at Healing Fibers.   I know you can do it!

Serenity in Fiber, Lynne





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